Sudden Changes

Well, here is the news. We just found out that Sam has to go to Iraq for over a year. He leaves the end of October for 2 months of training. He only gets a couple of days off for Thanksgiving and Christmas, and then he leaves in January. So I've spent the whole afternoon in denial and crying, of course. It also doesn't help that Sam had duty today and I found out over the phone, and won't actually see him until tomorrow. So I know it sounds like I'm complaining... and I probably am. I guess with Sam being in the Navy and on shore duty, I never prepared myself for him having to go. I would love your prayers, not only for his safety but for my attitude as well. I know in my head that God had a plan and His timing is prefect, but I am having a difficult time truly accepting that. I know I am not the first wife to have her husband sent to Iraq on such short notice, but it's like all I can think about is me... so selfish huh. Just one more thing to work on. Grrrrr! Alright folks I am going to end my pitty part now, hopefully by the time of my next post I will be in a better attitude. G'night...